Writing Wednesday

“I would have done...eventually. I didn’t know what was going on so Skyped Will for his help and he made me realise how I felt. You just happened to walk in as he was telling me how I felt and how I should tell you” I replied.

“So you’ve never been in love before and so you don’t know if the feelings you do have for me are in fact love?” Tom asked as he walked over and sat down on the bottom of my bed.

“Yes” I replied.

“How do you feel?” Tom asked.

“I get butterflies when you’ve been away for a few weeks and you are about to come back. I’ve always told myself that it’s because I believe that I have wrecked the house or something but it’s not. I miss you when you’re away. I love every little thing you do and everything about you. But I’ve always told myself that it’s because you’re my best friend. Maybe I’ve been trying to deny my own brain about the fact that I like you more than just as friends” I said. Tom laughed.

“I went through those exact feelings for over 3 years before I realised my true feelings. I tried denying myself once I had realised but I couldn’t, I had fallen for you” Tom smiled.

“So...what are we going to do?” I asked.

“Let’s just take things as they go Treasure. We’re going to my parents for dinner tomorrow and then going to Australia, we’ll see how we feel after, okay?” Tom smiled.

“Alright” I smiled back.

The next morning Tom drove the both of us to his parents. We were trying to be normal around each other, but things were naturally awkward. We weren’t calling each other pet names, were just sticking to our own names and straight after dinner together the night before, we both went straight to our rooms. We were currently sat in the car, listening to Radio One. Half an hour into the drive, Tom leant over and turned the radio down. “I can’t take this anymore Tee, this is exactly why I didn’t want to tell you” Tom said, glancing briefly at me.

“I’m sorry; I just don’t know to act around you. I know nothing should change but they have” I whispered. “I understand why things are awkward, I just wish they weren’t Tee” Tom sighed.

“I wish I knew if I felt the same as you; if whether my feelings were stronger than friendship. At least that would help us know where things stood” I said.

“In an ideal world I wish that I didn’t feel like this, and then things would be fine” Tom said.

“So you would rather we were friends then in a relationship?” I asked.

“I’m not saying that...” Tom whispered. I looked over at him and he was grinning.

“See, that smile melts me. Does that say something?” I asked.

“It says that you like my smile” Tom laughed.

“Well I do like your smile...but I could like you as a friend and like your smile. God; everything is so confusing” I sighed.

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