Kat Says: Love

Well, she said Valentines Day seeing as that is in a few days time and then added 'and love in general' at the end. So rightyo, here we go!

Let's start with Valentines Day. I hate Valentines Day. It annoys me how there is a day specifically for couples, so all the single people become miserable. My mum buys me Valentines stuff though. Last year she bought me two rubber ducks with hearts on them. The year before a teddy with a 'I Love You' heart. The year before some 'love bug' photo clips. This year, god knows what she has got me. But I know it isn't a teddy as I mentioned one when we were in Sainsburys and she just went 'no'. So I put that I wanted it on Facebook and my best friend offered to buy it for me :') So I've bought her a pressie. I've done that once before I believe, and given all my friends special cakes that my mum and I made. I've only once gotten a proper Valentines present/card from a guy. I was about 9/10 and it was from my next door neighbor. He had written a typical Roses Are Red poem in it and signed it from himself so I knew it was from him. There was also a daffodil that he had posted with it through my letter box. I thought that he was joking and thought that it was mean. But I still went with my brother, him, his brother and his mum down to the Rec later that day. He was 2 years older than me by the way, halfway between my brother and I. We were all walking down to the Rec and he was walking behind us all and then he ran over to me and handed me another daffodil that he had just picked from the floor. He then took hold of my hand and that was that.

He then broke my heart over a year later by writing 'I LOVE SOPHIE' on one of the bin shelter walls. To be honest, we never officially went out but it hurt. I was young! It's actually still there, the writing that is. Grrr. He actually does drugs now. So glad I don't speak to him any more.

Anyway, moving onto luuuurrrrrrv. I have never been in love. I believe in a thing called love, as the title of my blog says. I wrote this less than a year ago on this very blog: You know what: I actually don't.  Believe in a thing called love that is. Well, I do. But I also don't. I don't know what 'love' is. I know there are different types of it, as I love my cat, and I love my best friend, but both are entirely different. In that respect, yes I do believe in a thing called love. Love is weird...gunna leave it as that and that I do believe in love...in a way.
It is still the truth, but I do believe in a thing called love. I do believe there are different types of love and different strengths of love. I believe in love at first sight. I want to believe that love is magical, but I don't want to disappoint myself for when I do in fact fall in love.

I hate it when people on Facebook start going out with someone and within a couple of days they go 'I love ____'. It irritates me. I know I haven't been in love and so I don't know how it feels and how quickly it can happen, I'm sure it's different for everyone. But within two days? Seriously? And when they go on and on and on about it. It seriously does my nut in. You'll probably just think that I am saying this as I haven't been in love and that I will be like this when I am or when I am in fact with someone...but I won't be. Because I already do my head in enough.

Over and out.
xox